Dream awake

I can't stop thinking about him. I wake up in the morning and he's there, in my head. I go to bed at night and still, he's there. He's in my mind all day long and I don't know how to let him go. And in fact, I don't want him to go away.

I have difficulties to live when someone is always in my head. Like I'm living for him, literally. But... It's okay. I don't want him to go away, period.

Damn it, he's so fuuuuuuucking cute with me... Nobody has ever been like that with me for a long time. God. He's so perfect to me. And sometimes I even think he's in my head. Like he can't be true. It's impossible. How could it be? God. I  must be dreaming... But please don't wake me up, if I am.

I like him a lot. Is that dangerous? I'm afraid I get hurt if I let myself care that much... But it's stronger than me. I have to talk to him... We talk for hours on the phone and I'm totally away... So far away from reality. His voice is so fuuuuuucking hot. Ahah. It hypnotize me.

God please, let him stay with me for once... I need him so much right now. He's my life buoy. He's my everything, cause reality is to painful to endure right now.